Only silence...

It's over now but I will always love you no matter how far you'd go.
I am eternally sad - I won't be the same ever again.

H.A.I.R.

With my black hair I feel like myself again.

Alone just like before...

All alone again. I've spent a few days and nights with a precious and so special girl and damn I miss you so sweet angel! Volt filmnézés, fűbucka, South Park, 23232323...de a legjobb az a 6 sajtburger volt meg a kék szemek és hogy megismertelek. Megértesz. Megerősíted az eszem, lelkem, szívem. Köszönöm.
Zzzzzz: megerőltetnéd magad egy short message erejéig? If it's late to convince you then just die. (You push me, I push back - no reason to think)
És most...próbáljunk elaludni.
Just.to.say.goodbye.to.me.once.more.
And.tomorrow.I.ll.start.again.with.back.to.earth.

Heaven Now

I don't want to bleed
I don't want to wait
I don't want to see the pain and the hate
That you need to feel, need to feel alive

Down inside your soul
Your blood and your skin
Numb to the cold
And numb to the sin
And it makes you feel
Makes you feel alive

I want Heaven
I want Heaven
Right now
I want Heaven
I want Heaven
Right now

You've given it away
The sin you create
The acts of pain
Disease is the faith
And it makes them feel
Makes them feel alive

I just want the truth
I don't want your pain
I just want the truth
Without your shame
And I need to feel
Need to feel alive

I want Heaven
I want Heaven
Right now
I want Heaven
I want Heaven
Right now

I've been crucified
I've almost died
I've seen too much of your darker side
I don't care anymore
I just want it all right now

(Most beautiful song ever written and performed by LAM)

Violent acts of beauty

London After Midnight show just a few days ago in Vienna was simply perfect. They were so nice and kind, so thank you guys for talking with us, smoking together and for you Sean for coming out in the very end. Another dream came true!!! (That's what keeps me going on...) The new CD is perfect so special thanks goes to the members of LAM again!!!

Fav lyrics comin soon. ...
"See the lyric book in the Cd" - DIEEEE bois!!
xxx

I met a boi

AND WHEN I TELL YOU THAT LOVE IS HARD YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT...

I met a boy, he was a star
He saw everybody as sluts and sharks

"Do you love me for my money?
Or do you love me for my fame?
Do you love me for my face?
Or do you love me for my name?"

I said "I love you for your words
Isn't that what you're famous for?"

Do I love you the right way?
Do I love you the wrong way?
Maybe I just love you anyway!

FOREVER

This one is true for ever. You my one and only.
I won't ever turn away...just hide away.
I remember you.
You remember me.
Something sacred came alive and will never fade.
Maybe all this is gonna kill us still it'll reborn again and again no matter what we do.

First day of love never comes back

"Kiss while your lips are still red
While he's still silent
Rest while bosom is still untouched, unveiled
Hold another hand while the hand's still without a tool
Drown into eyes while they're still blind
Love while the night still hides the withering dawn"

I won't give up. I need you boi. Sure I won't bother ya. Sure I won't say a word. So don't pretend you don't think about sleeping with me. Sweet sacrifice.

Köszönöm lányok az izgalmas estét és az álmos-nehéz-szürke nap fénybe borítását.
Köszönöm Neked, hogy meghallgatsz, hogy ilyen bonyolult vagy és azt is, hogy talán bízhatok benned. Remélem, mert jól esik...elmondani sok mindent. A többit magammal megbeszélem.

...

Nor anyuja

...elfelejtettem, pedig itt volt a fejemben, csak rácuppantam a videoklipekre. Szóval tegnap kikentük a 3dik ajtót, fürdőszoba, ződ lett. Szép. Like a poison open door.
So, her mother is pretty and has eyes like no-one, so warm!!!
I was so happy to see her!
xxx

Reach out and touch faith

Hey all of you. Halloween is over again and seems like it's so hard for me to let it all go. Especially to let go last Friday's night's Sonic Hell-o-Ween in Blue Hell. How I loved it. (Bleed well...sure it was the best song during the night - thanks for Árpi). Nos kicsit be lehettem rúgva. De csak annyira, hogy egy édeset borultam át egy puffon, fotelen, nem tudom, mi volt az, csak azt, hogy sötét volt, nem láttam és amúgy is a hiperaktivitás jellemzett, szóval átpörögtem rajta. (Ne, ne botránkozzon meg senki rajtam, én jót röhögtem magamon.) (Adri, miért nem voltál ott épp akkor, hogy felkaparj és jóóól szembevigyorogj...???) I missed only you Timee, you my snow white queen. Valoka. :) De every day is Halloween alapon csütörtökön megint. London After Midnight. Oh egek. :))) Ritka és értékes este lesz az életemben, nem kéne nagyon illuminálódni. We'll see. "I wanna live, I wanna love but it's a long hard road out of hell"
És köszi Dóri, hogy ott voltál. Remélem, jól szórakoztál with your barbie girl in our barbie world. :) Érdekes dolgokra is tudok ám táncolni, imádtam, we're all a little insane. ... ... ...

Nos Ő. A fogyatékos személyiségzavar megint beütött, de már kezdek hozzászokni - meg amúgy is: a pasiknál mindig van valami, ami nem stimmel. Majd összekapja magát. Or won't ever fix himself completely still I'll stand by him forever (this is my cross to bear). Rebel rebel bitch bitch. I believe he is strong and mature enough to solve his problems (?) but not in that childish way. Thank you honey. (Yes you could hurt me. For a moment it felt like...you love to torture me...dont you honey?) DON'T think that the word "love" died. Not even in your heart. Oh do you love to play dead (not the way I do - it's the death of your heart), oh you love to be locked in your cage??? "Lift up the reciever I'll make you a believer"

Mood:

"No mirror to show and tell,
No kiss that can break the spell,
I'm falling asleep,
Every prince is a fantasy,
The witch is inside of me
Her poison will wash away the memory"

So I wave good bye-bye-bye.