DoEs SHe KnoW? DoES sHE WAnt To?

The wondering

The only thing worse than missing someone is wondering what more could have been there to miss. Therefore I chose not to remember, I chose not to feel. 

life happens

every time i went somewhere or did something i thought "you should be here with me" and now i think of all the things we had promised to do all the places we said we would go and then i get angry and then i get sad and then i just forget about it all because what else is there to say or do?

(these lines were published on tumblr by somebody else, can't share the source, I don't remember it )